When I showed Ms. Yamamoto my old blog, she just said “What for?”, after scrolling through a bit. It was writing where I honestly poured out what I thought, and it was also writing where I jotted down small truths discovered in daily life.I’d never shown it to anyone before, but I wanted her to read it.
Yet her reaction was unexpectedly cold. True, it was a disjointed collection of writings, probably boring to read. And making her read about my troubles probably felt to her like, “We’re not that close, so what for?” I misjudged the distance between us. She was farther away than I thought, and now she’s drifted even farther.
I agonized over it, but deleted every single post.
She is tall, with well-proportioned features. My first impression was that she was sophisticated. She is the type who thinks she is saying something funny, but others don’t see it that way. Even so, she kept saying boring things without faltering. “What for?” might be her catchphrase, but it was the most boring thing she ever said to me.
However, I restarted my blog three days ago. Why? Because I found someone I wanted to read it more than her.
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